Tale of a Dreamer

I remember the first time I came to Jogja, and that was time in the dawn. The night was very dark and cold by that time. I found the location of UMY and I was falling in love with it in the first time. After that, I was looking for a mosque to rest. Finally, I found a mosque not far from UMY. I decided to take a break there. I took off my bag and my shoes, then immediately do the ablution to pray. I didn’t know for sure, but I felt very sad at that time. My tears were streaming down. The tears took my thoughts along and small sea formed at my feet. I was afraid at that moment. How if I couldn’t pay for the college? What if I got stopped in the middle of my study, just because of financial problem?

I only pray to Allah that that it wouldn’t be happened. Allah is the richest isn’t it? He is the owner of everything in this world, and he is the most gracious I believe that he would give some of his wealth to me, the poor who rich in dreams.

Thanks god that I could be accepted in UMY; although, I couldn’t be in the majors that I want, because of financial problems. Actually, I wanted to take the Informatics Engineering, but it was too expensive for me. Maybe that was god decision, and maybe that was the best for me. You know what, when I filled out the registration form and had to choose the majors that I wanted to take, I didn’t know why I choose English Education in addition to a majors that I wanted, maybe that was called by “the destiny slowly takes form”. However, I would live it with my fullest heart. How could I live playfully while I had risked a lot of things to achieve this? I still couldn’t believe I had realized one of my dreams to go to the college that was I had been dreaming about for three years.

The event of MATAF and OSDI was another story of my first semester. The event was fun because I met a lot of new friends, and some great man who had motivated me to be the best student. The opening ceremony of MATAF was very awesome. I could hear the beautiful tone from Drum Corps of UMY, the simulation of UMY’s Red-cross, and the best of the show was the Tapak Suci’s performance, and What I thought that day was “ I should join them someday”. You know what, now I already became the part of Tapak Suci UMY. There is saying “in every joy there is a pain” and I think that’s correct. Despite with all the fun that I had at that moment, I had a sad love story behind that. I had to break up with my girlfriend on the first day I followed the MATAF event. Oh, come on?? The day that should be the nice day just reversed. All I do by the time was just kidding myself to think that I’m fine and talked to myself “Hey, come on big boy. Don’t let that things break you. You have to move on. Your dreams are now right in front of you.  Don’t look back with the pitiful sad face. Life must go on, and now she is just a history”, but if I was to be honest, I couldn’t hide my sadness of losing her.

The college days begun. I was little bit nervous for that. It already three years I didn’t go to school and got some lesson. I met my lecturers that day, and they seemed to be smart and great. They will be my guidance here in my new life.  I was very happy to get the knowledge of theirs. I also met new friends in the class, and they would become my family here. To think that I was here, it was very amaze me. I mean, right now, I don’t have to work 8 hour/day, 6 days a week, and licking of my boss to get some of their smiles because I hate to do those things actually. I’m the free man right now, the free man who can live his life to the fullest, to pursue his dream, and to become “ME”. I preached each of my news in the college to my parents. I hope they were also as happy as I was. Thereafter, the blessing and prayers will flow with my every single step.

The days had passed and the task began to accumulate. I just said “oh no!!!” Fortunately, I had a lot of free time to do the tasks. Sometimes I did it in my boarding house, and sometimes I made it in the Unires. I prefer to do my tasks in unires, because I also could meet my friends. However, three days for holiday n a week it didn’t make me happy. In the other hand, I want to spend most of my time to learn, so I could get more of knowledge. You know, sometimes when the lecturers couldn’t get in the class really make me disappointed, but I knew and I had to understand that the lecturers had their own business, and sometimes that business was very important to them, so they had to get the things done first. One day in October, I came to the UNIRES to do my tasks with my group, and on that day I received the somber news about my father that was in comma in the hospital. And I went to back to my home town in rush. All the way to my hometown, all I was doing just pray for the worst thing not to come. Finally, I arrived at the hospital at 10 pm. I was so grateful that my dad could still hold on. I was thinking that it would be fine, my dad would be better son just like the old time, but at 3.48 am on the next day my dad passed away. Oh god! How could this happen? I was very shock, and sad. You know, it really painful, and hurt me so bad. It just like the sky was leaving and the ground was moving. I have never cry as loud as I did at that night. I kissed his forehead, and I said to him “even if you died, your dreams won’t. I will carry it on my shoulder, and make it real”. You were gone too soon dad. Don’t you remember when you said that you eager to see your son to become a great man. You will see me bought your dream car. The people in our village will be staring at us, and said to you “You have a great son!” that was the last words that you said to me on the phone three days earlier. It just a month that I started my new life in the college, and I still hadn’t got you some achievement yet. However, life must go on, so I walked and dragging my heavy dream alone. I know what’s important since that day. I still have my mother and my sister, I also have my friends, so I think that I still have something precious to hold, something worth to fight for. From that day on, I promised to you, dad, that I will become a great man that my name will reach heavens, so you will know when my dreams become true.

Anniversary EDSA was about to come. They hold a lot of competition. There are academic competitions such as, teaching, news presenter, and storytelling competition. There are also non academic competition such as, PBI got talent, acoustic, emperor and empress, and fashion design competition. You know, the worst thing about that was the fact that I didn’t join a single competition. Since I didn’t join any competition, I decided to help my friends for their competition with my best. Although just a little things that I could do for my friend, I was proud enough for what I did back then. Finally, the celebrating night of EDSA third anniversary was held, and the winner of every competition would be announced. The show was entertaining enough. After a few moments, every single competition had been announced who winner is, but I was wondering how could be my class didn’t get any award? I was very disappointed about that, but I have to admit that my friend did their best, I was proud of them. When the event comes to an end, there are some awards for best student in the class, best student of period, and the best lecturer. You know what? I was the one who had been chosen to be the best student of period 2013. I never thought that I would get the award. I wondered if I deserve that. However, I am proud of it. This is not about the award, but the trust that had been given by my friends by chose me to be the best. I dedicate the award to my dad, and my mom, and of course my friends too. Actually, I am no body without them all. Since that day, I realize that when I can’t do anything, I have the others to help me. of course I don’t know a things about teaching, I don’t know how to do storytelling, either, I don’t have any talent in music. Moreover, I don’t know what the fashion design is. I know that I need the others to complete me.

That is the line of words that says about my first semester in my lovely campus UMY, or I can say UNIRES. It was colorful. I have passed through black and blue, dark and bright, pleasure and pain. I reached my dreams and start the new ones. I was losing love, and found the new ones. Maybe this is not the best time I’ve ever had, but I’m sure that it will be the best beginning of my new life. The way of challenging the world is so long, but I believe there comes a time when I reach for my dreams. When the time comes, I will go from here to somewhere else, freer than anyone else, and life without leaving any regret behind, as I have promised to my father and my best friends. What a great life I had!

“So what if I’m stupid, but I like to dream”